Category Archives: New Years

Puppy love

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About 3 months ago I gained a new best friend. ‘Man’s best friend’. A puppy.

His name is Clifford and he is wonderful and weird and so so cute! I did not know I would adore him as much as I do. He distracts me endlessly with snuggles and zoomies and his general cuteness.

In a very short time I have realised that I could not live without him now. I like having him around. I like that he gets excited to see me even if I only went to get the mail. I like that he has to have a paw on me whenever we are sitting together. I like that he looks at me to check he is doing the right thing sometimes. I like that he sits on my foot and stares at me whenever I’m cooking chicken in the kitchen. I like that if you scratch his neck he licks you. I like that he loves playing with bugs. I like so much about him!

I notice little things about him too. That he has a little kink in the end of his tail. That one ear flips back more than the other. That he does a weird walk around the yard when he needs to poop. That he has 2 little cowlicks in the fur on his butt. That he does a funny little run to hide under the table when he knows it’s bed time. That he won’t drink water out of something another dog has drunk out of.

This (healthy) new obsession of mine occupies much of my time, and it got me to thinking about just how much God loves me. He is more than obsessed with me. He notices me and he knows everything about me because he made me!

He knows that when I can’t be bothered to wash my hair I wear bandana. He knows that I like my couch cushions arranged in a certain way. He knows that I don’t like wholemeal bread. He knows that when I am tired I am more likely to kick my toes. He knows that I am a sucker for caramel popcorn.

He sees each little insignificant thing! He loves each hair on my head – just think about the enormity but also the intimacy of that! He loves who I am and He loves who you are!

He sees me when I am at my lowest and at my highest and every moment in between. He loves me WAY more than I could ever love Clifford (which is A LOT!). It is said about dogs that they love you unconditionally and I now know this to be true. But for God it is so much more than puppy love, it is so much deeper and even more unconditional than that of man’s best friend.

There is nothing we have to do to deserve this love and nothing that we have done or ever could do to stop it. When we feel partial or fractured, God’s love completes us, heals us, embraces us. His love is perfect even though we are not.

And like a dog with a bone, He will never give up!

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Dream vs. reality

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The start of a new year always inspires me and motivates me, gets me thinking about all the possibilities to come. It’s weird how I can be so completely exhausted and drained from the year before, but somehow the new year rejuvenates me. Anyone else feel the same?

This year of all years my possibilities are endless. Not being tied down to a job at the moment allows me look into a lot of different options; studying, opening my own business of some kind, trying new things and having the time to be certain that the choices I make are the right ones for my future. The future that God has in store for me.

I have been having lots or conversations with different people who all ask the same question…so what are you going to do this year? And it gets me to thinking of all the dreams I have. The dreams I have career-wise, the dreams I have that are entrenched in Early Childhood and the dreams I have personally.

My dreams change from day to day but it can be a struggle when I sit down and really think about something I want to happen. How can this dream become a reality? What can I do to make it happen? Am I too poor to start my own business? Am I too shy to talk with people I don’t know? Am I too young to make a change? Will I fail?

Whatever your insecurities are, don’t let them stop you from pursuing your dreams. Sure, some of them won’t happen but you will never know until you give it a go! I mean, when I was younger I wanted to have musical stairs in my house. You know the ones that look like a piano and make a sound when you step on them? Let’s be honest, this is probably not going to happen – I’ve moved on a little since I was 10 – but I should never give up hope! Because you just never know, one day I might be playing Chopsticks on my front steps!

I think being practical is a really good idea when trying to pursue your dreams. If you really, really want to fly you probably aren’t going to be able to grow feathers. That’s not to say you won’t fly, you might just need to look into alternatives for flight. Don’t become discouraged if it doesn’t happen the way you expected. I think the key is to not give up, to try other avenues and ask others for help.

So from today I am going to start writing down all my dreams (not the one I always have while I’m asleep where my teeth fall out), writing down all the things I wish to accomplish in my life so that when an opportunity presents itself for me to open my own childcare centre or become an early childhood & family consultant in play or be a Mum or paint for a living or create dolls house furniture or get married or whatever it is God has planned. I’ll be ready and I’ll be prepared.

Don’t give up on your dreams! Make them into your own reality!

Oh what a year!

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Generally New Years Eve is spent creating resolutions for the coming year. For me, today meant having a little freak out because I have no idea what next year brings. Literally no idea!

I am absolutely stoked to be saying goodbye to 2016. Worst year of my life! A year that saw me mentally, emotionally and financially at my lowest. A year that was filled with tears and heartbreak and mistreatment from others. A year full of change. A year full of downright horrible-ness!!

This year was also a year of personal triumph, resilience, perseverance, and of survival. A year that I leant fully on God and he got me through. That is one thing about tough times, you tend to discover who you really are. When everything else is stripped back and you have only God to depend on, you realise that is all you really need.

2016 also brought support from others, especially my parents. Some new friendships and some old ones rekindled. Friendship and support that helped me through, beautiful words of kindness and hugs when I needed them. I am so grateful to all those who were there for me this year.

As I sit here wanting for 2017 to be one where I can make a difference, I am also worried about making the wrong choices for my future. I’m worried about experiencing another horrid year and about not living up to expectations I have put on myself or that I think others might have for me. But I think I’ll have to take each day as it comes, be myself and see what the wind blows my way.

I’m not one for making New Years resolutions because I reckon they put too much pressure on you if you muck up. But this coming year I’m going to make some New Years goals instead I think! I plan on putting God first and trying my hardest to follow his plans (whatever they are and however scary they might be). I plan on being a person who others can count on. I plan on completing some more study, my Masters to be precise. Which is the part of next year I am finding the scariest! I hated uni the first time round, but it feels like the only thing that has really presented itself – so here goes!

Hopefully this time next year I will be writing about the things I have achieved and not about how gosh darn hard it has been to have gotten through this year! 2016 was the year of survival but I am hoping 2017 will be the year of prospering.

Even though this year has sucked big time, I am still blown away by how blessed I am! I have a fabulous family & caring friends, I live in a great country and have so many things available to me with such ease. And most of all I have a God who has everything sorted.

Bring on the scary, exciting-ness of 2017!